BEHIND HOLY SHADOW: 1 Series : Testing Days
RENATA V.
(author, July 1, 2014)
first part describes how the young Liudas February, parental decision, he entered the seminary. Here he is getting used to the ascetic life, grim agenda. It is naive, full of idealism and hopinThe g he would be a good priest or as Maironis Baranauskas, people Pradesh. However, it is difficult to discover in themselves a living faith in God, in fact, it tends to solitude, reflection, it is difficult to express their feelings, be open to others. On feelings disturb the neighboring parish of young local pastor who lives in relative rains that wants to conquer the shy and sensitive seminarian's heart. February resist the temptation, but his soul is increasingly located in duality - he wants to please, eager to experience love, but blames himself for seminarian inappropriate feelings and behavior. Being in seminary his ideal woman around February which each church service at a significant woman - Cathedral stranger. Not being able to openly express their feelings, February start writing poems, which soon begins to print one of his fellows supervised release. Despite still feeling rebellious soul (desire love, desire to freely create, bodėjimosi priests hypocrisy) he takes the vows of chastity, and soon becomes a real priest. In the second part of February Liudas appointed vicar of the parish of mountain ranges. Here he is confronted with the reality of gray - rude, hypocritical priests, tedious, soul grueling work routine. It is difficult to find a common language with his parishioners, to educate them, to understand their lives. February rains sweetheart marries Doctor Brazgio and he became distant. The young priest finds refuge mansion frequented by young Polish Baroness Rainakienė. It provides the February books from the library and its manor attention. February, despite the negative opinion of the pastor, the Baroness 'free behavior' woman reputation, it often falls in the same time spend time together. Here it is again faced with an inner conflict between the desire to be loved and to him as a priest, the proper behavior. He is trying to communicate with exemplary, ascetic priests, but see that this really will not be the same. However, starting the First World War, and witnesses February dare to go to St. Petersburg. The last part is depicted Liudas February, returns to the already independent Lithuania after ten years. He lived in Western Europe, there received a Ph.D. degree. During those years, he moved away from the spiritual life, accustomed to secular cultural life, its idealism has faded. On his return he begins to avoid his duties as a priest, avoid interaction with other priests. His parents hope that he will now become the pastor, but January is leaving to become Kaunas and high school principal. There again he unexpectedly meets Lucy, who re-married and is now Mrs. Rich Kaunas. February shall teach her ​​son Vytukas and interacts with Lucy. Their communication is gradually transformed into a more serious relationship. February continues his literary activities and get-togethers at one acquainted with the American pianist emerged as a result of gold. So they develop love for one another, but February still can not stop his relationship with Lucy. But the death of Lucy Vytukas depressed, and then commit suicide. Liudas February, despite the priests persuasion, fear of the future, is determined to give up the priesthood and wants to continue his life with gold.