Under The Deep
C.R. Anderson
Paperback
(Independently published, April 19, 2019)
Seventeen year old Gina has spent a lifetime being abused from her addict mother, often putting herself in front of it in order to save her sister from the same. With an alcoholic, absent father, Gina and Davie try their hardest every day to avoid their mother, questions from their friends and teachers, and hide the secret that could tear them apart. Feeling trapped, all they do is dream and wait for the day they're both eighteen and can escape. When their secret is exposed, Gina feels threatened by a different kind of danger, causing her to fight back during the worst beating of her life. Relying on other people and admitting the truth for the first time takes its toll, as both Gina and Davie learn how to cope with their new reality. But when heartthrob Lars walks into her life and starts pushing down her walls, Gina can't deny anymore that all she's ever wanted was to be normal. Her bliss is interrupted by countless forces; a nosy principal, mean girls spreading rumors, and even her own father, convincing her she is defined by her past and that a normal life is not part of her fate. Then her mother dies, leaving an empty space she can't explain; a void that will never fill, leaving her feeling angry and relieved, and possibly even safe until her father steps in and starts to act irrational, trying to kill them. Only Lars can keep her grounded while she watches her life crumble around her. Gina has to fight in a way she has never known before. She is fighting for her life in a different way; for trust, for love, for peace, and for a future she never believed she'd have.