From Fifteen to Freedom: Orphaned, Wild, Lost and Lonely...Has My Life Been Just a Fairytale?
Michelle Hass
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(Michelle L Hass, Jan. 9, 2019)
A true story about the numbered days of a three time post abortive mother of four, who spent most of her adult life preparing to leave her home in a dark bathroom. This former beauty queen contestant could not look at her own reflection in a mirror unless the lights were turned off. She was forty years of age before she realized that she was a mother to her unborn children. Furthermore, her story narrates the long-overlooked realities, how the unnatural way in which she chooses to end her pregnancies resulted in grueling depression and hopelessness which she endures for almost three decades.This is a darkness to light journey. A transformational memoir which will offer you, the reader, regardless of your religious background, a deep look into the personal details of a once desperately lost teenager, transformed into a faithful follower of Christ. After reading the author’s story, along with some of her personal allegorical poetry, you will find yourself awakened to the presence of spiritual healing that was long overdue.Reader, please consider that the reality of abortion effects more than just the baby’s mother. This book is for fathers and grandparents, as well as other family members and friends, also known to experience emotional discomfort, due to the unborn child never being recognized and honored as a full flesh family member.FROM THE AUTHOR:The emotional darkness that can settle deep into the very soul of an individual after experiencing an abortion is very real! This distress can last a lifetime if never truthfully confronted. There is Hope! The emotions of a child, who becomes pregnant with a child, are dreadfully numbing. When I felt orphaned, I became wild at heart. My wildness was a masquerade for the loneliness, which I so madly detested. The lost feeling was there all along, leaving me to wander from one place to the next in search of love. All those squandered days left my heart so hard and my mind so sinister. I was just trudging through my daily life, relying on my own understanding, while drowning in a life of nameless insecurity, and endless harassment triggered by fear. Then one day, I embraced my reflection in the mirror. That very same likeness which I avoided for almost thirty years, was then remarkably well-defined, when Christ took my hand and rescued me from my unsuccessful battle with that distorted dark face in the mirror.So therefore, from within the secure surroundings of my well-guarded home, I began this authoring journey in hopes that my story might help others find forgiveness and help them also to surrender their shameful mask of never telling others about their decision to terminate a pregnancy, therefore ending a human life. It is with a deep compassion, I affirm my devotion to the women and men who have suffered in silence, without cause. You are not alone. -MH